All the Daughters of This
House
by Nicole Kornher-Stace
I.
Once upon a time
the house’s bones
were strong:
stone stacked on
stone from clay earth to slate roof,
walls fashioned
waist-thick to ward daughters
from the reach of
thieves and wind and kind-eyed wolves –
daughters named for
virtues they were bound,
by force of name, to
lack.
Hope withered on her
attic cot,
rising to jar jam,
chop wood, sweep floors
arms tough as
sugarcanes, inked dark with maps on maps
(in palimpsest: this
vein a silverlode, a river, a many-legged road;
that scar a
snowfield, an oasis, or an isle)
gaze to the horizon
she named ships
she never, outside
dreams, would sail.
Grace slipped
through the ice behind the house
(a jealous lake: it
snaps its fingers and
your fish go
belly-up, your boats go down.
It hoards its
drowned.)
and her dripping
ghost paced orchard-rows, perched in
peach-trees, singing
all her might-have-beens,
black ice clacketing
like dropped knives in her hair.
Chastity palmed up
scoops of mud beneath the reeds
and buried all the
minnow-children
(monsters’ brats or
saints’, her lips are sealed)
doomed to swim too
early from her womb.
Oakleaves and
daisies for their coverlets
and a cradle-song to
fresh-turned, bone-cold earth:
go to sleepy,
little baby, mama’s here.
The house wept from
all its windows
and longed for
gingerbread and gumdrops
to sugar-paste on
its stone skin
and lure the hungry
mouths, the clumsy hearts, the running feet –
thinking: some might
flee, or not be hoodwinked,
but some, perhaps,
might stay.
II.
Once upon a time
the house's stones
loosened like teeth.
Its windows slouched
in waves. By now
the shingles dulled
like molted scales. Beside the lake
squat tombstones
hunched and clustered,
pale and dark as
grapes. Two daughters slept under
a sagging roof,
daughters named for beauty,
raised to charm.
Grown tall,
they parcelled out
the house between them:
Lily brought her
husband; Violet her books. Together
they baked layer
cakes and meatloaf, planted
marigolds. One
pushed the vaccuum while the other
dusted frames. Each
one swore
that she was happy —
the bluestocking, the housewife —
each feigned to
scorn the other's choice. Though when alone,
Lily locked herself
away in Violet's library
and stretched her
cramping mind against
philosophy,
astronomy, comparative linguistics.
At her baby's cry,
she set her sister's spectacles
beside the lamp,
slid her finger back into
its wedding ring,
and plastered on a smile.
Unaware that Violet,
alone, was given to
let down her hair,
wear Lily's cocktail dress, her bracelets.
That gathering her
niece's empty swaddling to her breast
she'd practice
lullabies to children
no-one would ever
give her:
go to sleepy,
little baby, mama's here.
The house shifted in
its sleep
and wished for a
belt, a skirt, a cape of thorns
as long as tongues,
as green as sin
for men to crash
against like robins at a windowpane
and with all their
expectations fall away.
(That daughters
might pick berries from
their lonesome
bones. That crows might tithe their eyes.)
Behind which those
it guarded might find peace.
The house snarled
with its graveyard breath
and the wolves fled
from the door.
III.
Once upon a time
the house shakes in
its skin
cellar to shingles,
and a window – two –
the last ones left –
blow out. That one was close,
the people murmur,
stacked like nesting dolls
(the smallest
snugged in the next-smallest's arms,
the largest's back a
shield)
in a fireplace, a
bathtub, under stairs.
The house, gone
loose and bawdy in decrepitude,
holds its doors
slack as any sheela-na-gig
to whatever wind may
come; but its grasp, too,
is just as clever,
and its old laddered spine is sound.
(The lake is dry.
The fish are combs of bone.)
One daughter lives
here now:
strong in her way,
like all the daughters gone before,
she knows the shape
and taste of loss, and lack, and hope,
of compromise and
need.
She flinches as the
impacts near,
but takes the baby
in her arms (the measure of her strength
the distance she can
carry, can protect, the ones she loves)
and races air-raid
sirens through high walls of smoke.
Hands cupping little
ears against the screams she sings
go to sleepy,
little baby, mama’s here.
The house stretches
ungiving cellar-roots
and yearns for
stilt-high, tree-high, star-high chicken legs
to bear it up and
send it on
shedding black mold
and bricks and chimneysoot
over the broken
roads, the bloodied dead
only pausing once:
to stoop (like any witch)
and reach long nails
to claim its own,
the last kernel of
its fragile weary windburnt heart;
to nestle it and
lullaby as soft as snow
as the fires build
bright towers on all sides
and the bombs drop
down like golden apples in the dark.
About the Author:
Nicole Kornher-Stace was born in Philadelphia in 1983,
moved from the East Coast to the West Coast and back
again by the time she was five, and currently lives in
New Paltz, NY, with one husband, three ferrets, the
cutest baby in the universe, and many many books. Her
short fiction and poetry has appeared or is forthcoming
in several magazines and anthologies, including Best
American Fantasy, Fantasy Magazine, Ideomancer, GUD,
Goblin Fruit, and Idylls in the Shadows,
and has been nominated for the Pushcart Prize. Her first
novel, Desideria, is available for purchase on
Amazon. She can be found online at
www.nicolekornherstace.com or
wirewalking.livejournal.com.
Poem © 2008 Nicole Kornher-Stace. Painting by Ivan Bilibin, 1899.
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